i was supposed to go to my sculpture workshop tonight, but i had car trouble, so i could not go.  so frustrating.

 so after that mess, i came home. drew this. 

she is part of a larger book project i'm developing. it's going to be a long term thing, very long term, considering that i basically have maybe 2 hours a week to work on it. but you know, chin up. hopefully she'll come to life in sketches and paintings, story outlines, and all that stuff. i might clean this up in diluted chinese ink and traditional pen.

you know, while i'm here, i may as well confess, sometimes when i see work exactly like this from others, i think, oh gawd...that's so cliche. then i find myself at my desk banging out sketches that look cliche. i think about this phenomena all the time. perhaps my heart is filled with nothing but cliches. i dunno. whatever the case, i think it's better to let all of those ghosts out rather than bottle them up. there are already so many forces that prohibit creativity to thrive, so why add to those forces?

yes, once i have a pile of sketches and development material, then i can go back and make sense of it and do something interesting with it. for now i am just letting it happen as it bubbles up.

the weird thing - and you may have noticed this - is that i cannot work in a linear fashion. for some reason, perhaps due to hyperactivity/enthusiasm,  i need to work a little bit on many projects all at once. the only danger to that is not ever finishing anything. i am pretty determined. i like to put projects to bed, so i will finish this book someday. just not saying it will be any time soon. so i'll post bits and pieces here and there, in between other posts, and maybe...just maybe...

the end.